Big Dreams, Messy Manuscripts, and an Author’s-Artist’s Creative Life #2

Hello my Beauty,

So my girlfriend and I entered the next America’s Great Author contest, 10 pages of a new story, plus a bio, and a video pitch about my story and myself. It was hilarious, fun… crazy, and we did it. Both so creatively and so differently. I loved the challenge, and the energy and my determination to get it done, have fun and turn it in!

This experience felt a lot like the great Long Bridge swim I participated in with my son and brother-in-law this summer… a 1.76 mile lake swim (crazy, fabulous, empowering, wild, looooong)… I decided and then took action and then surrendered the outcome.  And the realization just now that the turtle steps, the little by little by little, ‘blue skies, nothing but blue skies’ was all that day (being there in the moment) and, all the days prior to.  Every day is little by little by little, turtle steps AND giant leaps of trust – in self, in Universe, in Benevolence, in LOVE and the ALL, all the time, not just when you need it, when you ask for it, but all of time, all the time.

Oh yeah, that.

Constant-ever present-resonating-regenerative-giving, purpose*full, beauty*full, full of purpose*full kindness.  It’s always and in all ways, right there, (right here, right now.)

This LOVE is in the trees, in the birds and the bees, in the flowers and in the weeds, in the clouds and in the sun and rain and rainbows. Solid in the immovable mountains and the mosquitoes you get to realize are not pests, but an angel whispering look, look here.  Here’s the way in, the way around, the way through, and under and over, the way to let it go, to surrender just by recognizing it-by seeing it.

It—You—don’t have to be fixed (you’re not broken in the first place) cracked open, raw to all the new newness, perhaps, but not broken.

Broken implies not enough.

But you are and ever have been more than enough because YOU are the ALL, YOU are of it, YOU are from it… YOU are IT.  That ever present prescience that is your heart, your core, your heat, your love, the every beat that beats just for you, that every breath that breathes just for you.

You are the rain drop in the ocean.  You are the rays of the sun, the supernova of energy, of heat that creates and destroys and creates anew, ever expanding ever growing.

That.  That is your purpose, the ever present moment of being alive, of living the life you live because you are you and ever precious and worthy and loved BY and FOR and WITH this ALL, this KNOWING.  This LOVE sees only your preciousness, sees only the miracle that you are. It doesn’t matter if you’re purposeful or purposeless, all that matters is that you are here and you are enough in the pure essence, the pure beauty, the pure purpose of BE-ing YOU in whatever manner that takes.

Let you, be enough.
Enough to love
Enough to laugh
Enough to be here…
Living this life with the purpose being to LIVE, to See, to Breathe, to Feel your heartbeat, to Know…
You are YOU
AND You are ALL that is
And BOTH are beauty*full and whole and holy and
More than ENOUGH.

InJoy,

Shannon